I had a visit today to see my internal medicine physician for a suspected infection. Several medically-informed people said this was the probable explanation for my symptoms. I was in no mood to go, and hear more bad news.
She remarked that the only time she saw me was when I was sick. True. I get so tired of seeing specialists that I ignore regular check-ups. Another phobia besides pillaphobia. Physicianaphobia! Webster’s dictionary is probably not pleased with my humor at making up new words.
The first question always asked is, ‘Have any of your medications changed since your last visit?’ Uhhh, kind of. Medications added to help prevent kidney stones. Change in medications for my Multiple Sclerosis. And you do know about my diagnosis of asthma, right? I’m on two inhalers.
Have you ever experienced such stunning silence from someone that you try to fill in the gap with meaningless conversation? The issue was, she had suggested I had asthma nearly two years ago. I explained the events leading to the diagnosis, and sensed her frustration. No one had told my primary physician any of this information. However, her professional recommendation to have me treated for several symptoms had resulted in an exchange of information between the pulmonologist, neurologist, and urologist ~ but not the gatekeeper of all my medical information. It was an honest mistake by the other offices, but it affected her role as the primary physician.
We changed subjects, and she remarked how well I was doing with everything. She was incredibly encouraging, putting aside her frustration after her initial shock. That is a talent, and a lesson I could learn. Appropriating frustration or encouragement at the right time, to the correct audience.
I learned a lot from today’s visit.
- I have a team of physicians who work very hard to provide quality care. I need to count my blessings!
- I need to take a more active role as the patient. I could have improved the situation a great deal.
- When frustrated, take a deep breath before speaking. It can spare almost anyone from saying things they might regret.
- Have realistic fears.
- Be an encourager. Words do matter, and I can always make a positive difference.
I had received enough negative medical updates, I assumed more was coming. I was wrong, and I just wasted time worrying about something that never happened. The past doesn’t define my future!
“Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes. ~ Matt. 6:34, The Message