https://youtu.be/cAPUo65t2tI – Zealand Worship
I have always said I am a work in progress. That has never been more true than since January 9, 2016.
I was unprepared on every level for the loss I would feel when my brother passed away. He would address anyone who pressed him with medical questions by responding, “Don’t talk to me about dying while I am still living.” I took that very much to heart and discovered that all of my communication, all of my thoughts, everything centered on the present tense. I pushed away any thoughts of ‘when’, ‘how’, ‘why’, etc. Thus, it was truly a shock to hear the words that he was physically gone from this earth. Can any of you relate to this?
In the days since he has left us I have been very intentional in making physical contact with other people. I have reached out to at least one person every day that I know is hurting in some way, lonely, or just has some need in their life. It is my way of connecting to this present life.
What I am slowly seeing is that my God IS a good, good father. I never questioned this but I don’t think I allowed myself to fully embrace that concept. I had compartmentalised him to a small vision of being perfect, omniscient, omnipresent, etc. But good? That was hard for me to see during this time with my brother. I just put the question out of mind.
When I turn the situation and the questions off of myself and on to what God is doing around me, yes, he is indeed a good, good father.
How have you seen that in your own life?